Efflorescence

                I was walking leisurely through the amount of white bookshelves that lined up neatly  at some book store that afternoon, looking for nothing but great books to read. I goggled around the shelves, tried to find my favorite author but indeed, I found none. I instantly asked the desk clerk to find the book that I was searching for until he replied with a shaking head. I slightly turned around and I followed this curiosity to find another good book to read beside the previous one. There I found a thin but interesting book of Paulo Coelho which I forgot the title of it, I flipped it open and there I found a sentence of wisdom that lucratively glued on my mind, and it keeps repeating inside my brain, it said :

          “There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure”

                Be positive. I knew I’ve been in a bumpy road, there’s a time where I can see my self lifted way up high and there’s also a time where I can see my self sunk way down low. It was all a stepping stone and an unpredictable progress after all . Yes, failure is my biggest fear, some how I take failure as a big deal but indeed it wasn’t like it was the end of the world, failure is the new beginning, I supposed.  And I faced failure more often than a victory instead. Somehow I frequently forgot to be grateful, god had gave me an uncountable blessings, but I always asked for more. God gave me this precious families and friends that I couldn’t find anyobody like them in anywhere else in this huge world.

                Life has taught me tons of things, I learned to work hard, play hard. I also learned to believe for the best, and have a courage to take risks. Life isn’t always be a happily ever after  and The world isn’t that friendly after all, I could finally say that.  I can say that I was a spoiled girl back then, I was spoiled because of the uncountable happiness and I have never think of anything else besides being happy. I didn’t know about the outside life, how people struggle for living or dreams, I do what I want to do.  Until then, I knew the meaning of life, the power of dreams, and an enchanting result of believing. Chances are Gold, don’t you ever ignore them coming, it’ll be a shame, and it happened to me.

                So then, One night I was seeking for another start, another goals that I should achieve this year, before I turned 17. I am a goal oriented kind of person, I need to gain success and reach my dreams. I wrote down a quotes that I made by myself and for my self, I sticked them on the mirror that hanged on my bedroom wall. So then every morning, when I looked at my self on the mirror, I also see those words and I believe that I could make the day even better than before.

apparently i dont really know why am i posting this . it’s your choice to read.

xo,

b